Awww, I know that feeling. (On the other hand, that's what libraries are for . . .? >.>)

(I - I think I know the relevant parts? @_@ i.e.: suicidal Dickon, TERRIBLE FANFIC BABY of uncertain parentage, Colin pining over Dickon and bringing rentboys to the garden . . .

Vampires do not stand a CHANCE against Mary Lennox.)