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Nov. 9th, 2016 03:20 amI left my election night group at 11:30 PM and said, things aren't getting better, I have to be up at 4 AM tomorrow to catch a plane, I'm going to try and get some sleep.
Well, it's 3:30 AM and I still have not gotten any sleep so at this point I think it's a lost cause. I am more frightened than I can remember being and so many others right now have so many reasons to be more frightened than me. I know we have to go on, fight, organize, protect each other, make sure to change things in the next election (if we get a next election); it's just that right now, at 3:30 AM, it's hard to see how.
I have to spend the next four days at a professional conference, delivering talks, moderating sessions, as if this were still the country it were this morning. And, I mean, this is still the country it was this morning. It's the country it's always been. It's just that that country is a couple of percentage points worse than the country I was desperately hoping it was.
Well, it's 3:30 AM and I still have not gotten any sleep so at this point I think it's a lost cause. I am more frightened than I can remember being and so many others right now have so many reasons to be more frightened than me. I know we have to go on, fight, organize, protect each other, make sure to change things in the next election (if we get a next election); it's just that right now, at 3:30 AM, it's hard to see how.
I have to spend the next four days at a professional conference, delivering talks, moderating sessions, as if this were still the country it were this morning. And, I mean, this is still the country it was this morning. It's the country it's always been. It's just that that country is a couple of percentage points worse than the country I was desperately hoping it was.
